finally.........

jialing, finally and eventually, it's time for you to settle down...
don't worry. be happy. everything gonna be just fine.

result will be out next week. huh, my last sem gonna start.seriously hope tat i hav d magic power to freeze time. holiday, i want you to stay with me ^^

everyone is struggling and progressing with their propap. well, guess, it's just me who is still playing hide and seek with topics. haish. hope that i can manage this eventually.

well, it's difficult to get help anyway. human are selfish, tat's what my mum always tell me
another reason is i m really shy to ask for help. dunno, just feel like being stupid of asking. asking for help is like killing myself.

luckily, you are kind enough to lend me some time. you save me actually. thanks. i will always remember this.for you, it may be just teatime talk, however, for me, it is the remedy for my drowning.

let's go back to A. dun play play with Z.

rejected

my proposal was being rejected.
guess what, i broke into tears. phew. tat's such an irony. the reason is, before this, i had been advising all my friends to be optimistic and happy. eventually, i m the only one crying.

well, all i can said is i cant stand the feeling of being rejected i guess.
when i was presenting, she keeps geleng2 her head. mdm kway. tat somehow tear my heart into pieces. i wanna to cry out. yet, i managed to keep the tears till the end of presentation.

perhaps, this is circle of life.
being rejected - starting all over again - rejected - start all over again (for xxxxx times).

tanjung malim

gonna go bek to Tanjung Malim on friday after such a LONG time.
dunno hw's tanjung malim..haha...

looking forward to meet all d blockers n friends =)

hope to hav a sip of my favourite oreo milkshake at easy cafe too
plus, their seafud spaghetti ^6^

h-o-l-i-d-a-y

i hope tis would be a real holiday for me.
i hav lots of stuff to be completed~

1. of coz, nid to update my health for my own sake=) God Bless Me.

2. nid to be my bro's tutor again, helping him out with his preparation for PMR.

3. helping my mum with her major assignments.

4. upon request from a few teachers, i nid to search for souvenirs for them.hope i can find them.

5. completing several assignments for tis sem.

6. get real rest so that i can hav a fresh start once i go bek to IPSAH again =)


happy holiday to everyone and God bless me

hope i wont get any terrible nightmare anymore =P

practicum~

convent gals, i love and hate you =)

life goes on with rainbow by my side all the time...

suffering day by day...yet i manage to go through all these till now...

home, i will be bek to you soon =)

terminate my 0174187860

zul said i look emo recently.
well, wat's d definition of emo? haha...i myself dunno d answer. perhaps, there is no answer.

i made a daring decision last nite. i call 123 and request to terminate my number. wow. juz wanna say good bye to the past me. so childish and simple-minded.

who knows, new number will bring new life for me.
people keep on asking me 'y do you nid to terminate ur number and change into a new one?'
my reply will alwaz be 'saje...or simply...'. coz there is no reason for tis. tis juz happens without a reason~

can u define secret?
secrets are meant to be kept, aren't they?
however, sometimes, we feel like wanna share these secrets wif someone. at tis moment, perhaps you should stop and ponder for awhile. if you are telling ur secrets to tis him/ her, you will be expecting him/ her to keep tis secret for you as well, rite?

so, wat's point of sharing then?
u r juz being selfish by transferring ur burden onto ur listener.
tat's y there is a saying 'silence is gold' =)

my dearest friend, hope you can understand. it's not that i m being egocentric. i juz dun wan you guys to worry bcoz of me, worry wif me or even worry for me. stay happy, tat's all i want you to be =)be carefree and enjoy life.

i realized tat........

well, 2day is another eventful outing day...
as usual, typical pasar malam day coz it's tuesday. wow, we hav pasar malam every day here, but location differs.
pasar malam...again, i meet familiar faces...uncles and aunties...
wow, u hav everytin there...juz bring enuf money, then u can get wat u wan.

i bought cendol pulut (which really dissapoints me), satay (rm 0.25 per stick) and laksam (which makes me feeling contented). i never tot tat i can get tat familiar taste again. it tasted exactly like tanjung malim's laksam......i was so so happy.oh ya, plus pita ayam tat chien chien cant finish up. she is in real slimming programme nowadays and i m d total opposite of her-P

tis triggers me into reflection again...sometimes, when u need to giv up sth to earn sth...
who knows, wat will happen next. HE might hav great plans for you.

Hav faith, jia ling =)

i realized tat........

well, 2day is another eventful outing day...
as usual, typical pasar malam day coz it's tuesday. wow, we hav pasar malam every day here, but location differs.
pasar malam...again, i meet familiar faces...uncles and aunties...
wow, u hav everytin there...juz bring enuf money, then u can get wat u wan.

i bought cendol pulut (which really dissapoints me), satay (rm 0.25 per stick) and laksam (which makes me feeling contented). i never tot tat i can get tat familiar taste again. it tasted exactly like tanjung malim's laksam......i was so so happy.oh ya, plus pita ayam tat chien chien cant finish up. she is in real slimming programme nowadays and i m d total opposite of her-P

tis triggers me into reflection again...sometimes, when u need to giv up sth to earn sth...
who knows, wat will happen next. HE might hav great plans for you.

Hav faith, jia ling =)

practicum

2day mr basil had a briefing for us on practicum.
haha...we r going to schools. according to him, he assigned the school for us based on our individual style and characteristics wo. haha...i m more suitable for a convent school hor? coz perhaps d gals there are more gentle and nice.

2day when i look into the mirror, b4 heading to class, i look like a teacher. 1st time did i notice tis. wow, haha...tat's amazing and i m proud of it.

still trying to get used to ck though. she is a nice roommate, i should say. yet, sometimes, i cant really stand her straightforwardness. not to worry, i can adapt myself to tis new 'environment' =)

charlie charlie is intruding my peaceful life. stupid charlie!
though you are significant in states in the North and you hav striking green cloak, yet, i still hate you so much.
serangga padi aka charlie, plz leave me alone!!! @_@

do you want to make a u-turn now?

yesterday it was a total u-turn for my feelings...
d day started wif a big grinning rainbow in the sky, right on top of our assembly site.
then it went on with our group presentation in which i was stuttering nervously. yet, i was no longer uttering 'and then' countlessly while presenting =)

6 o'clock. wow, badmintion time. exercise can really kill stress. we played badminton in the gym then continued by jogging under the extremely-friendly sun. next, we dabao char kuey tiao from the cute auntie right in front of our institute.

on the way bek to our hostel aka 'block si putih', surprisingly, we saw rainbow hanging in the sky. it seems to be reminding me ' jialing, y are you not smiling 2day?'.

chien chien, on the other hand, had a different pov. haha,..she is thinking of her boy boy. she is now love-struck ma ...

at nite, my rummate suddenly read aloud a proverb to me, out of nowhere.
'every cloud has a sliver lining,' -- well, another reminder for me~

the sky is always blue, isn't it? (n_n)

it's all fated

i juz cant take it~

y my life is so bumpy?
y i nid to face so much of challenges?
y does it hav to be like tat?
y cant i be juz a normal 22-year-old gal, leading carefree life?

collapsing ..................

it's all fated

i juz cant take it~

y my life is so bumpy?
y i nid to face so much of challenges?
y does it hav to be like tat?
y cant i be juz a normal 22-year-old gal, leading carefree life?

collapsing ..................

secrets

perhaps, some secrets are meant to be buried.
perhaps, some incidents ought to be erased from your mind.

i hope i m a good secret keeper n i will shut my mouth forever.

sometime, i m overloaded, trying to look for a tree which can listen to my secrets and keep them for me.
yet, none can be found or mayb tat is due to d fact tat I DUN HAV FAITH IN ANYONE now...

life is unpredictable

life is unpredictable, juz like a futball game =)

u won't know how many chances tat u gonna hav to shoot the ball;
u won't know how much scores tat you will gain;

so, juz act smart and play well in ur own futbal team (aka social circle)

i wont forget bout 2day

i wont forget about 2day~ forever

you or me?

i hav alwaz proudly declared tat if my friend and i fall for the same boy, i will eventually quite tis love game. coz i dun like to fight wif others.

wat's yours will be eventually yours.

and i m strongly against the saying, 'if you wan it, fight for it'.

last week, when i was stil at home, my aunt visited me. well, once her appearance in front of my house was a once-in-a-blue-moon event. however, things suddenly go amiss. she saw my beloved bracelet and she voiced her fondness towards tat colourful bracelet and on the next moment, she possessed it juz like tat. should i regard tis as seizing others' belonging or hijacking? haha...

soon after, i was a bit annoyed and moody as well...juz imagine tat your favourite belongings juz *puff* and vanished in the air. how would you feel? wat i can do is juz persuading myself by bringing up reasoning for my brain to process it.

luckily, on the next day, i was okay edi. haiya, 拿得起， 放得下 ma.

who knows, tis incident reoccured again tis week.

i brought some souvenirs back from hainan island. o ya, skirts for both me and chien chien. when i happily showed her the skirts, she looked disappointed. of coz i noticed tat. though i may look blur, i m sensitive sometimes =P

so, i showed her my skirts. her eyes was sparkling when she saw them. wat can i do?? as a friend, we shouldn't be self-centered rite?? so i pretended to show 'i dun k which one u take' face. finally, she chose my favourite peacock style skirt.

haha...mayb sometimes, things are fated. wat's not mine, juz let it be. dun cling stubbornly on it.

NOW, I hav another unsolvable question in mind:

wat if one day, my buddy and i came across something or somebody tat we both interested in, who should be the one to give in? me or her?

back to ipsah

1st day in ipsah

finally and eventually, we are back to ipsah.
after 2 years...well, most saying that we have the teacher look now. =p

found it really hard to adapt myself.

1. BLOK SI PUTIH, IPSAH versus BAHTERA HOUSE
it's really dirty and dusty when we 1st entered here. it took hours to really clean up the whole room and made it into my comfortable home-to-be. luckily, i m staying in the 1st floor. so, not much stairs to climb. haha. o ya, another tin. the shower room tat we have here is small. haha...i juz realized that. you can juz do a 360 degree turn standing at the same spot in the bathroom itself coz it's small. o ya, i m having a new roommate from now onwards. hope everytin goes well. pray hard.

2. BILIK KULIAH BLOK AKADEMIK versus UPSI TAMAN UNIVERSITI
hey, switch on the air-cond plz. oopsi, dear, now where got aircond.here only fan lar...the classroom is empty and simple, without anytin. not like upsi which is well-equipped.

3. TEACHING versus LEARNING
wow, we gonna be teacher. apu, we were assigned to convent fatherbay. haish. haha... i wonder if i can tackle those students. mila confidently said tat we can. yet, i can feel that she has the fear too. jialing, all the best.

4. EXPLORING versus SUSTAINING
well, it's a new plc for us. so it's time to explore this plc. sp looks really different nowadays. so many shopping malls here. well, i m looking forward visiting the new cinema here. i wanna watch movie. hoyeah. haven found any nice places to eat yet. like charsiew ke, bakuteh ke...haha...delicacies, plz come to me =)

1st day of ipsah
.

no more rain

rain god in sibu has been away for vacation. x raining these few days. sun god is hardworking enough to be there for us every now and then.

my day started off with facebooking. woke up extra early 2day, unexpectedly =)
smiling and smiling

however, my day ended with me emotionally collapsing into tears. however, i felt relieved after writing a long wordy letter to confess my feelings. it's hard to keep hard feelings to yourself. better let it out or else you will get sick.

hope everytin goes well tomolo.

life journey started...yes, go go, jia ling=）

now

cant believe tat! i gonna teach soon. ya, pretty soon. perhaps one or two weeks later.
hope everytin gonna be okay. well, teaching is in my blood ma. since my mummy is a teacher too. =P

browsing tru my friend's profile. i wish to visit some snowy places too. snow alwaz looks pure and awesome...when u touch/ feel/ look at it...d feeling is juz so intangile. it's great!

it's juz a switch of feelings

sometimes i feel as if feelings can be easily manipulated =)

yesterday i was so depressed
2day i am on top of the world
amazing huh?

2day i m feeling really proud of my mum. SORRY friend if u feel i m getting over-excited.but tat's me, alwaz cant really control my emotions well. i sent two 'hoi' but none reply. haish. haha, mayb tat's not d right time for them kot.but i juz wanna share my happiness ma. wakaka. her big day will be on sunday...wish her all d best =P

saturday, sunday
yahoo...weekend =)

my two wishes

Dear God,

right now, i have two very simple wishes. quite simple, i guess.

my 1st wish is for my dearest brother. i hope he can eventually GROW UP, spiritually and mentally in particular. bro, u know how i feel every time i scold you? i didn't mean to shout so loud at you. yet. i juz hope tat you can actually open ur eyes big as well as ur heart to c wat is happening around you. we are ur family, can't you c tat? family stands forever for you, but not others. U disappoint me most of the time. yet, wat can i do...i still love you, my brother...

my 2nd wish is for my praktikum. well, juz wish that i can go tru tis praktikum smoothly. of coz, i will try my best to be a really good teacher. i will be hardworking, dedicated and patient. hope tat d application tat i hav been learning for al tis while can be turned into practice tis time. however, i hav strong prediction that i will b crying each and every day during praktikum. well, tears can be a good way to release tension. don't you think so=P

ho jia ling hoyeah ^^

funny

almost every nite in sibu is raining....

today FIFA gonna starts. everyone seems to be crazy bout it. it's even greater than olympics perhaps.

2day spent my time wif nephews. they are so cute and notorious. juz love them so much.
gonna keep myself busy again tomolo. tis will b d best solution. and i juz dun wan to waste any more time. MASA ITU EMAS MA~ perhaps...=P

my aunty said, keep your eyes wide open for any good choices out there...
haha....mayb they tot i hav been keeping my eyes closed for all this while....

会不会是你想太多了

你是不是想太多了呢？
简单一点不好吗？哈哈。。。

其实，是你。。还是我想太多了呢？。。。
总之，把头脑 turn off 一下吧 。。。酱一来不就不用想东想西了丫~

祝：好运^^

running doggie day~

today, me n my brothers spent the whole evening playing wif karby. nowadays, 'he' is getting fatter and fatter. so, we decide tat we shod let him do some exercise. tat's it. we exercise together wif 'him'. chasing game.

'he' was getting too excited tat he ran out from the house. running on the streets and to the playground. haiyoyo. then we tried means and ways to get him into the house.

it's dinner time again. i hav double responsibilities. haha. preparing food for my family 1st. then, preparing food for our two doggies. both of them are cute but naughty. hope you two will grow up fast2...haha...

mushi mushi, where are you? haha~

telephobia recently~

hav u ever experienced tis?

you got numerous calls from someone who...:

1. tries to persuade or coax you into doing sth tat you dun wan to do...
2. blames you for sum old-days conflicts~ now it's time to burst out perhaps...

once you answer d call, tat's it...
they will start to 'bla bla bla...'n i will have to say 'ya ya, erm erm, yes yes...'

well, sometimes, we shod respect d elderly. i do understand and obey tat rule. still manage to control my EQ until now...

but stop testing my level of PATIENCE AND TOLERANCE!

i guess tat's y i love d song 'telephone' by LADY GAGA. STOP PHONING~

gonna spend some quality time wif my granny.
granny, i love you.hehe.

h-o-l-i-d-a-y

bloggie,

sorry for neglecting you for so long~
coz nowadays i have been chatting wif my diary instead of YOU. =)

juz came bek from haikou aka hainan island...went to lot of beaches...well-known ones...'enjoy' sunbathing every day....absorbing lots of vitamin D.

after 6 days 5 nights of travelling broad.below are my pov of tis foreign plc:
1. undoubted, d nature is awesome ( beach, park, garden, farm...)
2. the people there are really rude n incourteous...they din persuade you to buy tins (but they SHOUT/scold at you till you buy them)...hate and fear tis so much, seriously...
3. the best plc to get yourself cool is to go to the nearest toilet coz most toilets are equipped wif air-cond...i went d toilet for d sake of cooling down instead of .....kekeke

my aunty asked me tis morning if i would like to follow her travelling to kuching within these few days.
without any hesitation, i said NO.
too much kuching for tis month,...haha....NO MORE.
of coz it's a nice plc wif friendly people...special thx to mr kong n friends~

tomolo gonna start my journey exploring parts of malaysia

hope i enjoy the trip~
fud fud, i m coming ...haha
cant wait to go bek home actually~

delete delete delete~~~~~~~~~~~~
yes, i did it^^

mother's day

mother's day is coming soon~
am i a good daughter until now?
am i?

alwaz hope tat i m d perfect mama's gal in my mum's eye but i always failed to do so~ disappoint her again and again~

my mum is alwayz d most important person in my life, all d time;p

2day my sis's besday..hapy besday, ah meh...really hope tat your wish will come TRUE~
keep praying to GOD. i m sure that he will arrange for you.

trying to catch up with TIME~

JUZ a few more days left in tanjung malim~
i m still trying to hold time in my hand...

going here and there, searching for memories to be kept in mind~
especially all types of food here and there~ hahaha~

have you ever heard tis saying?

whenever you feel sad, stop grumbling and look up into the sky.

God has prepared sth to cheer you up~



it mayb a colourful-painted rainbow, a round and smiley moon, creatively-shaped-clouds, chirping birds flying freely and etc etc etc....

these wonderful nature elements are actually his soothing words and comfort for you, reminding you that 'Dear daughter/ son, I am always here for you'~

n i firmly believe tat^^

take a rest to rejuvenate~

exam exam exam...
nobody likes exam, i guess~



yesterday, i was in banana mood coz i m using my new banana flavoured shampoo~ hahaha
however, when we went to easy cafe, mila ordered banana milkshake but she was told tat there is no banana left.pity her, no banana for her~

it was funny though. i ordered vege mushroom spaghetti but 15 minutes later, when i m eating...i found many weird visitors in my dish~ so many ketul of chicken flooded wif creamy sauce...oh my gosh~haish~

3 down, 2 more monsters left~
all d best, my comradesssssss ^^

yes or no?

2day, as usual, went laksam shop in d early morning~
then bla bla bla~

erm, was in bad mood juz now~ one hour ago~
then i took a long bath~ massaging wif spa soap n singing happy songs~
i felt good after tat...telling myself to be positive so tat i m ho jia ling~

if you dun wan, juz tell 'no'
dun push yourself. coz i dun like to push people doing things~

i juz feel like eating together together, tat's all~



~ panda alwaz manages to cheer me up~ thank you ^^

n0 m0re freed0m

at first my fb is being "c0rrupted"
then ym...

huh, t0t i c0uld still have my own sweet bl0gsp0t.c0m
yet, everytin is being disrupted~



kiss g00dbye t0 fb, g00dbye t0 ym.
bl0gsp0t...s00n, perhaps~



less0n of the day:

we r living in a s0cial circle. it's complicated. s0, it's better t0 keep a distance wif every0ne. every0ne. c0z s0metimes, unexpected 0ccurs unexpectedly.

bek to tm.com

from sibu.com, i m bek to tm.com~
my friend said i look different~ haha...maybe due to the fact tat i hav been breathing fresh and cool sarawak air for one week~ so, i look fresh n nice~



now i gonna talk bout BLOCK. block. BLOCK.

blocking~ well, enuf blocking, dear friends~
do watever tat you wan...if tat's wat u wan...block block block ....blockage

to whoever-it-is,
HELLO, i m SINGLE. yet, tat doesn't mean tat i m DESPERATE enuf to snatch other's BOYFRIENDS.
i hav my own principles and my own LIFE.

PEOPLE, STOP making your own decision.
I CAN JUDGE me MYSELF~

n to those who are boyfriended or girlfriended, consider yourself LUCKY coz you have found your soul partner.
dun do anytin ridiculous...d key here is hav FAITH in him or her~
he or she loves you, for sure...dun doubt tat FACT.

i hav learned to accept now. i know i shod accept life~

feeling empty

my advice to a friend: stay at ur right path, dun go astray.

however, i myself can't follow my own advice~
=_=

i m sick n ill~
juz went to c a "doctor"
he said it's hard to heal..
but i nid to be patient~

i was actually looking forward 2nite, hope to c him online n i wanted so much to chat wif him.
yet, he is busy wif his stuff, x time for me.
no time, no time, no time~
nvm lar...

chien is planning so eagerly for kuching trip~ i dun hav mood, juz dunno y...
but i m wondering bout d boat trip...will it be okay?

ym

sorry,now no more mood to talk bout ym~

being blocked n blocked n blocked.
n getting to know d truth, d truth n d truth~ all ARE LIERS in the end

from strangers to friends~

thursday is such a emotion-full day~
we hav our farewell + photo-shooting session in class...plus many2 goodbye sessions with our beloved upsi friends and lecturers~
i juz feel so so sad~sad~ still d word sad~

i could still rmb the time when we arrived officially here in upsi.well, i hated tis plc, tis kampung plc...dunno, juz dun like it~ life is so miserable here...

yet, as time goes on, we widen our social circle...n our upsi friends finally accept us as part of upsi.(coz at 1st, we, ipsah teslians, alwaz feel like we r merely d anak tiri for upsi...)even d song 'ibu kandung suluh budiman' becomes 'ibu tiri suluh budiman'~hehehe

feel like writing bout one funny tin. i realize tat it seems more comfortable while chatting wif friends in ym..haha, perhaps i m d shy shy cat type..especially my two special friends on ym~

during our last sem for listening and speaking cls, we had two new upsi friends -- romeo and gless. however, we never really knew each other--d upsi n d ipsah. both parties seemed to be ignorant towards each other.

tis sem, for seva class again, we had herman, priya, haha and rokiah~ well, we managed to mix well. we are friendsssssss~ (^^)tis shows that actually there isn't any gap between upsi n ipsah~ mindset is d REAL barrier~

gonna continue my work for miss mariya 1st...to be continued~ d next topic will be on ym. =)

d BEST thing of 2day is badminton~
wow, it's great coz i really sweat~ as if all sorts of worries juz evaporated from my heavily-loaded-body.

dunno since when, but i love badminton now~ my passion grows day by day~
all my friends are my sifu too, esp chien chien who keeps pinpointing on my weakness in playing~ i had great n meaningful lesson on how to tackle d shuttlecock at the court~

plus, i love badminton coz we play not for battle or scoring (but we were really serious while serving)~ erm...i shod say,we play for fun n relaxation. we really laughed our heart out throughout the game~ best~

work work work at home~ tomolo never dies...
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angel vs devil

2day suddenly i hav d feeling that everyone is good. and there isn't any devil or demon in this world. ya, human's angel side dominates within oneself.unless you let ur evil side to go astray.

2day i had an unexpected and unforgetable experience of sharing the same cute umbrella with my lecturer. well, i loathed her all this while. yet today, my view towards her has totally come to an 180 degree twist. she is so human 2day~ i mean, without her tiger mask, she looks juz like me, a normal human filled with affection~

3-2-1-stop
3-2-1-stop

tis is the last week for tis sem.
can i stop tis?

3rd attempt~

wow, ear-piercing~ tis is my 3rd time~ hope jadi lar tis time~
earrings earrings~ i gonna wear you soon~hehhehehee


p/s:i love earrings wif musical instrument (^^)


today i had a great day watching movie n eating pork chop~ huhu
thx to chien chien and yogi

MIRACLE does happen~ hahahhaa~ thx, my friends

love you~

mr moody, off you go!

rainy days are just soooo NICE~



i desperately wanna settle tis issue today (04-04-2010)~plz help me~
yet, odds are stacking against me~

nvm, still a few hours to go~
佳凌， 加油(^^)

emotions~

whenever it is raining, i will be moody~

whenever i m in bad mood, i will grab some cendol or ice-cream as if IT can really cheer me up~

if i m at home, i will look into my aquarium...when you c fish swimming, you will feel enlightened as though nothing can bother you~

whenever i m in mood swing, i will take a bath that will relax n soothe myself~

whenever i m in good mood, you cant c my eyes~ hahaha...coz i m smiling n my eyes are smiling too~

sometimes i hope i can hav a delete button on my mind. then i can delete certain unwanted folders~

juz wish tat sometimes, i dun nid to bother bout others, i can be juz myself~

promise~

2day i m moody again~ huhu~
yet, tis photo makes me laugh till jaw drop~
hahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahaha

after raining~

it was 1:11 am in the morning...it's after raining...so, the air is cool and soothing~

i alwaz believe tat rain can wash away people's unhappiness and any negative feelings...after raining, everytin is a new beginning.

unexpectedly, when i looked into the dark dark sky, the moon was already there, smiling and waving at me.haha, thank you, mr moon^^ you heal my heart~

another sarawakian name~

i have another friend.i hope he still treat me as his friend.
his name is HERMAN~
let me interpret his name...
her man....tis HE is HER MAN. a man tat will only protect his own gal. how lucky d gal is...HE can only c HER in his eyes, nobody else.
for d sake of protecting her, he can flush away all his other female friends~
tat's HERMAN....really her man~huh~

actually i like tis friend. as my friend of coz...coz he is quite an interesting guy. we r hi-bye friends. let me count....there was only 3/4 sentences till d moment he blocked/ alienated me~

well, all d best, my friend~ of coz, you are always my friend^^
cheerio~



*my feelings after attending EST class tis morning~ copyright reserved~*

rainy feelings~

feeling so moody 2day~
forgot to switch on my smiley face tis morning...only when my friends remind me, i realize tat~

it's hard to control your feelings, isn't it?
at the same time, i knew i shod control those irrational feelings or emotions.i knew i shod.i knew. i know. n i alwaz know.YET........

friends, can you help me instead of teasing me?

Dear God,
i nid you so that i can be myself again~
wat's over is over~
and never longs for stars in the sky~ they are too far n impossible to reach~
wat's not mine won't be mine too~

gambatteh, jia ling ^^

my soul was not there

my morning starts wif a great one coz i m one of the survivors of the battle of gunshooting~
"awak semua kurang pandai...x tau ajar la tu...hanya orang tua saja yang pandai"
haha, general, dun worry, wait till i m old, perhaps i can be as pandai as you are~
however, my "soul" was not in the class...i wonder where it is~

afternoon was great coz it was raining more than cats and dogs...i was doing my work in d living room and it's so cool and windy!i love tis type of weather...coz i alwaz believe tat rain will alwaz wash away all d bad things...

nite, we went makan2 ...i managed to eat d moon noodles~well, it's so satisfying...my stomach was quite happy with it...however, i hav no 'jodoh' wif the take-away hokkien me~

anyway, sharing is caring ma, right?

grEAt NAMES~

our names are special coz we are special...special huh?

tis morning something struck my mind.
"wow, sarawakians hav great names~"

to me, name represents you. your name is you and you are your name.


to name a few, (trying to interpret myself)

gerdashlie -- mayb he is geddik type of personality and erm....lie??or lies??

terry -- as cute as a teddy bear~ quiet but a good listener~

bobby -- bobbing his head here and there...outgoing type of personality~

romero -- still looking for his juliet i guess...flirting here and there~

gillespie -- Jason Neil Gillespie, an Australian cricketer. a potential star-to-be in education field, i believe~

Henry -- seems like a wise man...striving for his target~


mine is special as well...ho jia ling..however most people mispronounce my name as jaring~ jaring net perhaps...other nicknames are:
ho jia
ho chiak (as if i m edible~ish2)

2day i didn't manage to eat cheese naan =( i went to mamak but there is not cheese naan...sob2

nvm, thx to mila, tomolo gonna hav cheese naan for my breakfast b4 my battle wif General H~ wohoo, good luck to ME =)

my sunday~it's beautiful~

it's sunday again. i love sunday simply becoz i love laksam. haha, tis is d day when i can eat laksam (d reason is the mak cik only sells laksam during weekend).

of coz b4 my laksam, there will be some appetizer, as usual...amazingly, 2day all kuih are in pairs~ ina took them for 3 of us.



then, here comes my laksam~hoyeah~


nite, suddenly hav d urge of going to watch d tautan semarak performance in campus. there we go~
well, it's amazing~ suddenly i feel proud and special of being a sarawakians~esp when we sang "ibu pertiwiku"...

cheers to all sarawakians~ sarawak is alwaz my home and is alwaz d BEST in my heart.

One~ two~ three~ Four~ Five~

mAgIcAl nUmbEr~

one~ a lonEr

two~ swEEt couple

three~ lOvE triangle~ susah n cOmplicAtEd

four~ a square~ rigid and not flexible~ but fair and square~

five~ gimme five. if you don't. MDU (merajuk dengan u).

six~ i love tis number becoz there are 6 members in my family~ n i love them very very much~

seven~ 7-eleven~ slurpEE is so cooling and refreshing~best giller

eight~ prosperity~ $$ ~money money...no money x talk~

nine~ cloud 9~ wooo.....childhood memories again~

ten~ ben 10~ gimme ten bucks

x longer trapped in the quicksand~

glad tat ho jia ling is finally "free" from this~

i hav to admitted tat once, i was really infatuated by HIM.i would be stammering, stuttering and acting silly in front of him. yet, i juz dunno y.i put the blame to my heart WHO is easily swayed and influenced.my heart doesn't have stern or firm stand.

PAST
"y do you like him, he has ntg special actually"
" well, it's juz tat i like the way he plays guitar.it's really cool and romantic"

"wat are you going to do then? confess or what?"
" i gonna do nothing. coz i knew tat nothing is possible between us. i m x good enuf for him. he prefers someone who is seducive and flirtatious. i can never be the kind of gal tat he wants."

PRESENT
"hey, ur someone is here."
"o..hii, someone"(expression-LESS)

"hey, we gonna leave here soon. y don't you muster all ur courage and do something?"
"erm..FYI, he is my past. nowadays i become more reflective, juz dunno y.when i recall bek all those memories (as a stalker of him), i can't stop laughing. how silly i was! i was juz like a silly gal obsessed in my own little fairytale world. i never bothered to look at others coz my eyes were merely on him."

sayonara, my stalking memory, it's a great lesson of life. as i learn to be wiser.
dun simply LIkE or lOvE anyone, coz you may end up in the quicksand and it's fatal YET amAzIng ~

weekend again~

wow, tis weekend isn't weekend for me.
sort of hectic yet meaningful n informative~

kolokium seminar~ i was half sleeping most of the time during the presentation ~ yet, i would like to dedicate my special thanks to MENTOS for making me stay awake~

secrets~
i love listening to secrets~shhhh
i love secret recipe cheese cake~ yummy
i love to organize secret yet surprise birthday parties for my friends~

secret always brings along suspense.however, once d secret is revealed. brutal reality comes in.nobody knows wat to do~

colour are amazing

some loves black

some loves green

some loves white

some loves red

well,to me, it depends on mood~

human are complicated creatures

their emotions and feelings are complicated as well

sometimes, i wish tat i can be tat all-know-person~

then i can read everyone's mind....instead of guessing and figuring out their intention and hidden feelings~i wanna read UR MIND

erm....confession here

well, i din mean to hurt anyone~ juz tat sometimes, my words tend to hurt others~

of course, you have d right to do anytin tat u wan. i cant interfere. however, as a truthful friend, i shod be giving constructive advice, right?

perhaps, EVEN THOUGH we have been going through all these years together till now, WE remain strangers to each other~ i dunno YOU and YOU dunno me. tat's really pathetic, isn't it?

life's x juz as easy as ABC~ IT CONTINUES till Z, i tel you~

dun take friendship for granted, as if it's juz a disposable plastic bag~ once you dispose it, dun ever think of retrieving it bek again~you cant ~ i tell you and i ASSURE YOU~ you CAN'T~ you lose the chance of being my friend~haha~ tat's d end of the story

habit

once you get into a habit, it's hard for you to dispose it~

once you get used to someone, it's hard for you to ignore him/her~

isn't tat so?

i admit that i m d most simple human being, ntg special, ntg much~

yet, i shod be confident wif who i m.

dun giv in to emotion, says mila.

coz, if you are emo, wat u did is not wat you wanted to do...

you will regret soon after that~ tat's for SURE~

people, shall we choose to follow our heart desire, or shod we juz follow d safe path?

I am thinking and pondering if............

Two is better than ONE

Three is never ALLOWED

wednesday nite~

well, this is the first time i show my really-black-face to others. kesian my roommate. she is the only one seeing all these.

i would like to apologize for this.

erm....it's wednesday. well, we are all preparing for sidik. however, juz dunno y, everything juz goes astray, beyond my control. i got frustrated actually. erm... i still manage to control and bury it.

then, going to pasar rabu. upon leaving, i accidentally dropped my hp. my hp was handicapped, juz because of my carelessness. at nite, i plan to sleep early. coz i really nid a REAL SLEEP. however, there are juz too many things to touch up for our presentation on the next day. i was really really mad now.eventually, tick tock tick tock...it's now almost 12.

both me and chien rushed to photostate shop. luckily, we made it. she was looking really blur and helpless. she keeps talking to me, trying to coax me into telling her what my wrath is all about...

'do you wan ice-cream?'

'or you wan fish burger?'

haha, juz dunno y, i could no longer freeze my 'bengang' face. i burst into laughter.

well, true friends can bear things together.

sorry and thank you,

from the bottom of my heart.

i m ho jia ling

perhaps, to someone, i m childish;

perhaps, to someone, i m blur;

perhaps, to you, i seems to be so annoying~

watever it is, i m still tat hojialing~ forever me n tat's REAL me

i will turn my deaf ear to wat others gonna comment on me~ but i would be very glad to receive your opinions and comments~